Today I feel...

Hello blogging world.
It's been a long while, I know, and I also know that this is how I start each and every one of my posts. I am currently sitting in biology pondering my life. It's been a rough day and really, I just want to be in bed. But I am here to discuss some of the things that are on my mind.

  • It's a hard time of year in Utah right now. Windy mornings, warm days, snowy evenings, and below freezing nights. While I understand the frustration of the weather, I have only been amused by it lately. I feel that the weather is just as moody as any person and that alone is enough to keep me from frowning upon the weather.
  • I have an internal battle about school right now. I love university, I love learning, and I love my major. It's just the rest of the classes that I have to take to get to graduation that is really tearing me down. I will finish school, but currently I don't see a problem with just stopping. Because I know myself I won't actually stop, but the thought is still there.
  • I've realized the biggest reason I don't blog often is because of the lack of followers I have. I know that seems weird, but if I'm going to blog I want people to read it. I also want to be able to change or inspire just one person. Is it selfish to want more followers? I really feel like if I had more followers I might actually blog about something worthwhile instead of the trivialities of my life.
  • It breaks my heart to see young people smoking. Today, while walking on campus, I saw a young boy who looked about 16 smoking a cigarette. I know it's really none of my business and that's his choice, but there are so many diseases out there linked to smoking that I don't understand why someone would risk that. My religion does support a non smoking lifestyle, but that's not the only reason I don't smoke. I don't understand the appeal of tobacco, drugs, or alcohol. I have never been drawn to try any of those things just because of the science and medical research behind what they do to your body. 
I think that's mostly what's on my mind right now. Hopefully this won't be my last post for awhile. So, blogging world, I'll see you when I see you.


  1. Jessie, sorry I sorta was wrapped up in myself earlier. I feel kinda lame about it. I hope your day gets better! Love you! (ps... I love reading your blog. keep posting!)

  2. I read your blog! I enjoy being able to read about your life experiences. I know how you feel about not having followers, I feel the same way! Love you tons!


  3. I totally agree with you. I don't know why anyone would want to take any of that. Being offered it in my life, it was just an easy no but I think it probably starts as an image thing for teens. They probably just want to fit in at the time and get hooked. I can't think of any other reason anyone would do it. I had a coworker who quit smoking at the beginning of the year and she recently started up again. I don't understand why; she knows the dangers, her dad is dying from smoking his whole life and she seemed so much happier and energetic without it in her life.
    Anyway, this is long, I love to read your blog and somewhat keep up on you; I miss having friends.