"...of whom shall I be afraid?"

Dark clouds drift into my soul; a storm is brewing. A war is raging, dark vs. light. The light disappears as it is replaced by darkness. I can no longer breathe or see spiritually. I attempt to cry for help, but the darkness feels like chains binding me tightly. I did not ask for this, I do not want this. My desire is for light to reside within me, yet it seems like the darkness continually prevails. I am afraid. Afraid that I will not be able to overcome this evil, this villainous poison that dares to overtake my being. I want to scream, to do something, anything, to make it go away. Does anyone really understand? I imagine so, the darkness is a representation of many things, different for everyone. But does anyone understand my darkness? Maybe not a mortal being, but my Savior, Jesus Christ, does. He knows and feels my pain, and I can find comfort through Him in anything.

Elder Holland said, "Every one of us has times when we need to know things will get better. Moroni spoke of it in the Book of Mormon as “hope for a better world.” For emotional health and spiritual stamina, everyone needs to be able to look forward to some respite, to something pleasant and renewing and hopeful, whether that blessing be near at hand or still some distance ahead. It is enough just to know we can get there, that however measured or far away, there is the promise of “good things to come.” My declaration is that this is precisely what the gospel of Jesus Christ offers us, especially in times of need. There is help. There is happiness. There really is light at the end of the tunnel. It is the Light of the World, the Bright and Morning Star, the “light that is endless, that can never be darkened.” It is the very Son of God Himself. In loving praise far beyond Romeo’s reach, we say, “What light through yonder window breaks?” It is the return of hope, and Jesus is the Sun. To any who may be struggling to see that light and find that hope, I say: Hold on. Keep trying. God loves you. Things will improve. Christ comes to you in His “more excellent ministry” with a future of “better promises.” He is your “high priest of good things to come.”
These words are words of comfort. Please feel free to read his whole talk here.

"The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?" Psalms 27:1

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